Well, the air is still out, Im still as hot as ever, but I am sitting here, brainstorming and trying to reflect over the past 592 days and where I go from here.
Well first off, let me try and catch yall up on current issues. One, as I might have said in my "update" post, I have just been given great news that the House and Senate Judiciary Committees are hearing testimony the 20th and 21st of September. It is my goal to have the Court of the Judiciary abolished, or at least changed, because currently they are the only body, separate from the Legislator that governs the act of the Tennessee Judiciary, in short, they are the only people that reprimand Judges for the illegal actions. Currently it is nothing but a bunch of Judges on the Board, and there is nothing right about Judges Judging Judges...and the statistics prove that they dismiss hundreds of legitimate complaint. They dismissed my complaint within 3 business days of me sending it. Figure that one out? Unfortunately too, I am not the only person that has suffered an injustice at the hands of the Court, therefore in attempts to provide REAL justice for the citizens in Tennessee, myself and others who have been violated by this "organization" the COJ are all going to meet and testify to the legislators that something has to change to provide the people of Tennessee some REAL EQUAL ACCESS TO JUSTICE.
I met with someone last week in Nashville, who I dont quite feel comfortable saying yet. But he offered me some good advice I believe and hopefully there is more to come. I do want help from any abled body, but I also have the courage and determination that if no one help me, I will do it alone. I know the injustice me and my girls have suffered, I know that people have broken the laws and violated the US and TN Constitution in the retaliation and railroading of myself. Therefore, as long as I am breathing, I will fight for what is right, and hopefully I will accomplish my goal, and other families will not have to suffer the way me and my girls have.
Lastly, Tim has filed a Motion to have me jailed this coming Friday, August the 19th, 2011. The Order from Judge Page, that gave full custody of Andie Faye to Tim , also ordered me to pay him child support, currently I am ordered to pay over 600 a month in child support!! Isnt that ridiculous. Tim lives with his father, who is head dean of Union University, who makes over 100 grand a year, Tim testified that he made over 30 grand a year. BUT I do know, it is current law that the custodial parent receives child support. The thing is IVE BEEN PAYING CHILD SUPPORT, I just can NOT pay the ordered amount, since I have been paying as much child support as I can, I have to let my other obligations go. Legally though, Tim can have me jailed for not paying him the full ordered amount, and now, he and his attorney are asking for me to be jailed. So most likely if things proceed the way they have, I will be in jail on Friday, and I will sit there until I can pay my child support arrearage of over 2 thousand dollars. The law states I will sit in jail until it is paid, so that should be interesting. Honestly though, at this point, Im not afraid of jail, hell, I need a break.
On a good note, this last weekend was my weekend with Jozie, we had a BLAST! We went to the river, she tubed with me, we fell off together, we skimmed rocked, I tubed by myself with her watching, which I know she enjoyed. We also got to see Andie Faye on Saturday which was soo great for us. Bless her sweet heart too, about every hour, in the middle of random talking, she would say, "I been missin you so much momma" "I been missin you so much Jozie" and Jozie and I told her how much we missed her but how happy we were to have time with her. She also tells me that Tim tells her that I dont love her and I dont want her, which really kills me, because I refuse to tell her that he is lying or anything else about him. See, now, all I can do is show her my love, give her everything I have and let her make the decisions. So, I ask her, do you think mommy doesnt love you? Do you think mommy doesnt want you? She says No, but what else does she know? She doesnt have me, and the her main caretaker, her father, tells her that. So right now, its not my place to tell her that her father is a lying piece of ....because then, what does that do to her, when she has to go back home to him? I would never do that to her, I would never have her questioning her safety in her main caretaker. All I can do is love her, all I can do is show her my love and my want for her, and in the future, when the time is right, if she wants to know, I will show her my filings. Until then, I will love her all I can, I will give her all of my time that I am "allowed" to. I need to stop talking about my girls for a minute, I get too upset, and I get too depressed which distracts me from the goal at hand.
But, if I dont post after, Friday, August 19th, Im in Jail. I will be preparing petition though, just asking for my release, that will be down at the pawnshop, for anyone who wants to sign, if I am jailed.
Also, it is open Court, so if anyone wants to come and support me, the Court room is open, my case is the only one that will be heard, Friday the 19th at 1:15pm, in Madison County Chancery Court. Maybe with people in the courtroom the Judge will want to fully abide by the laws and have some ethics. Case is Rosebrough vs. Rosebrough. Oh, on the bright side, I requested and was appointed a Court appointed attorney whom I do have faith in to assist me on this matter. Theres a big YAY
Well, talking about my girls has got me in a funk, I miss them so bad, Im so crushed, I will never get this time back, they will never get this time back, and we are all missing out. Crazy thing is, that I have NEVER said I wanted to keep them from their fathers. I have never said that their fathers shouldnt see them. Due to my lawsuit against James Butler though, the Court has favored the fathers. Basically, Tim and John are merely beneficiaries of my suit against the Judge.
I just do not understand, how they (Tim, his dad, and John) can do this? They say they love my daughters, they say they want whats best for them, THEY KNOW IM BEST FOR THEM. Do they not realize that my girls are getting old enough to see what is going on without anyone needing to tell them? Do they not realize that my girls WILL be old enough one day for me to answer their questions. What do Tim and John think my girls will think about their fathers when they know what they have done? Who knows, its not my place to tell them anything now, but if those men think my girls will appreciate them keeping them from me, they have another thing coming, and its most likely a bad relationship.
Well, Im hot, Im sad, and its time to go home and prepare for tomorrow. Because tomorrow is another day and as long as Im breathing, Im standing for what I believe in, Im fighting for my daughters and Im fighting for the criminals to be held accountable for their crimes. Accountability is where its at.
Heres a sweet picture of my girl Andie Faye, oh yes, Im going to start spelling it Andie with an E, because that is how I wanted to spell it from the beginning. So there.Heres a picture of my girl, on my lap, wrapped up in my coat, I LOVE THAT SMILE